Heartbreaking Potential

This is a letter to you, potential friend

Potential friend of a friendship that will likely never be

What will eventually seem like a moment in time

Currently sticks out as much more than a memory

It burns in my chest and rings in my head

The connection was real

And it was something I wanted to feel

I began to use it as a positive to leaving my circumstance

Looking forward to another confidant 

A fellow nerd to be one more comrade

It seemed like your feelings grew steadily 

Leading to fear of an explosion ahead 

It got complicated and confusing and hard to explain 

Not much more can compound such confusion

Than the need for professional boundaries 

There are so many things I'd like to say

So many things I wish I could unfold for you and I

So much concern for the friend I could have had

If only I would say hello

Or reach out with a "how are you"

But such worry is wafted from a distance 

For one thing you do not know about me 

The power of avoidance is a skill I bear 

Like a compulsion I cannot shake 

All it takes is one situation I don't understand or know how to fix

This is a letter to you, potential friend

Potential friend of a friendship that will likely never be

All the things I don't know how to say but feel deep inside 

... Feel enough to break my heart