Incapable

This heart is breaking from my own incapabilities

Doubt and insecurity buried deep

Hidden from those who might see

There is what it wants

Then there is what it needs

So many things I cannot provide

It is a regular occurrence, the battle inside

Wars waged in these veins

And shots taken to the gut

A soul grown to stand and fight

A brain primed to run, turn on a dime

Nurture versus nature

With no balance in between

This heart is breaking from my own incapabilities

Doubt and insecurity buried deep

Here we go, I can tell

It is creeping up again

This lost, lonely feeling 

Like I've been constantly searching

For a steady place to stand

A place not only to rest my head

But also my troubled heart

Have I found it?

I might have found it

But did anyone bother to tell

The muscle throbbing in my skull