Wishing

Two wishes will go unfulfilled tonight.
But I am unsure of which disappoints me more.

Wish 1 (the one on the surface)
That things will slowly change.
That I can bring in out.
That I can show you.
Because right now I'm comfortable.
It doesn't need to last.
Or even be real.
But it would be fun,
And you must admit.
Continue to hold you.
To enjoy you.
But more.
That would be nice.

Wish 2 (the one deep down)
That you will remember.
Help me to remember.
Bring it out again.
I don't want to think of what has happened.
Or how I feel alone.
That I can't be there.
I'm not ready for those things.
Remind me how I feel.
Show me that it's real.
Hold me again.
But more.
That would be nice.