Some of the Kindest Words I've Ever Received

"I wish you deepening roots to draw lengthening strength, nights of soft rain in plenitude, with clouds chased by dawn and nourishing rays all day, for as many days as it takes for you to feel whole, and healed, and created anew.

...

I hug your tree"


- A Friend



Let us now enjoy these words, full of so much:


"How thin in places are the walls of this deep well 
individuality, in which we are imprisoned,
and how easy to forget we can try to break through."


- The Same Friend

The Five Minute Timeout is Done and Gone

Five
Five minutes
I forgot for five minutes
For five minutes
I let it go

Once again though
The wind blows
It rages
The storm it brews
And it is a cold bitch

Do You?

I knew this would hurt.
But somehow I am still surprised.
I want to enjoy our time, I do.
But I also want to hide away;
Avoid all the interaction and pain inside.

My stomach is torn.
And my heart is ripped.
I'm falling to shreds in here.
And I don't know how much longer
I can take this insanity of life.

I want to run to you,
And hold you in my anxious arms.
I want to kiss you.
And never leave your side,
Even though it wouldn't be the same.

I can't help how this all feels.
But you seem to think I should.
I can't help the tearing confusion.
But you don't seem to feel it;
Unable to understand these things.

You want me to be somebody else.
But that isn't how you presented your self.
You get angry that I'm not.
But I can't change who I am,
And I don't think you want me to.

If you want somebody else,
And feel that change is right,
Then I hope you embrace it.
And not fight it for our sake;
You don't even seem to think there is an us.

Temporary I said.
And mean it, I definitely did.
Temporary I hope.
And really wish it true;
It is what I want, do you?

Not even my book can keep it at bay
The tears, the thoughts, the aching

It wasn't so bad until I entered this room
The different, the quiet, the lonely

I think you tried to forget before your sleep
Or else let your sleep help you to forget

More so because of it I am sure
It will hurt unbearably in the morn

To watch you hurt will...
Unbearable only begins to describe

But this is the road we must travel
Push through the pain and grow

It may only be a few days
It may be forever

With any luck, hope, love
We will be the better for it

Don't mistake my words though
Love, already I miss you

Like a musician without sound
I dearly miss you